A Little Sad

Well... The winners for the T-Tapp 60-Day Challenge were announced late last night.... and I was not one of them. There are still a couple of prizes yet to be announced, the only one of which I'm eligible for is "Grand Prize Winner", and I'm not holding my breath for that!!

Since finding out, I've been struggling. I visit the T-Tapp forums often to encourage and contribute, and it is so bittersweet right now because those who did win are positively gushing.... and while I'm happy for each of them, I can't honestly say that it doesn't hurt, all at the same time. I feel like I tried so hard! In fact, I don't know when I've concentrated so hard on something..... And I left it in God's hands, telling myself I knew that if God wanted me to go to the retreat, He would provide a way for me to get there. If this is God saying no, not right now, I will try to accept it. But it doesn't mean that I'm not discouraged right now.